Confessions of a New York City Doorman

Sex, drugs and suicide... These are the stories, tales and rumors from a New York City apartment building as told by the overnight doorman. The names of the guilty have been changed to protect the innocent… while the names of the innocent don’t really matter that much anyway. Any similarities or resemblance to real people or real stories are very intentional.

Friday, November 16, 2007

History Lesson

Throughout the earlier part of my life, pre-doorman days, I did whatever was necessary to earn a living and support his family. As a boy, I stripped broken down or abandoned cars in his hometown and sold the parts to local mechanics to provide some extra money for my mother to go grocery shopping for my brothers and sisters.

As a teenager, I drove stolen cars from one part of the city to another for local gangsters. Don't worry... they rarely put me in actual danger because they knew I did not have the disposition for a life of hard crime. The local warlords like me, a pudgy teen, because I always smiled and never turned down a job, no matter what time of day or night. But when there was a chance that someone might get shot or the military was applying the heat, they sent me on the safe or tame missions, like going out to get food or gas or even to get supplies to fix up whatever shelled-out office or space they were using as a base .

That does not mean I was able to avoid the violence and turmoil going on around me. Growing up in war-torn Yugoslavia made that impossible.

The country formerly known as Yugoslavia no longer exists. My parents' friends would argue that it never existed and that the name means very little to anyone from that entire region. It’s more like a useless term that groups diverse people under one umbrella name. Like Africa. Before Yugoslavia officially became a nation, the Slovenes, Serbs, Croats, Montenegrins, Bosnians, Macedonians, and Albanians had virtually independent histories.

The Slovenes have been fighting to preserve their cultural identity for a millennium against a number of the rising and falling empires you learned about in your high school social studies classes. The Croats had their brief shot at independence before falling under Hungarian, Byzantine, Venetian, French, and Austrian rule as well. It seems like everyone had a dynasty in Eurpope but them.

The Serbs had their shot at glory back in the day and briefly rivaled the Byzantine Empire in medieval times. Then came 500 years of Turkish domination before the Serbs won independence in the nineteenth century. Their Montenegrin kinsmen lived in the mountains for centuries under a dynasty of bishop-priests and defended their homeland against foreign aggressors.

The Bosnians did not have geography on their side to protect themselves from external political and religious pressure. Many Bosnians converted to Islam after the Turks invaded and became a nuisance to Austria-Hungary in the late nineteenth century.

A hodgepodge of ethnic groups have lived in Macedonia over the centuries. Just as the Ottoman Empire was declining, the region became a pawn among the major European powers.
The disputed Kosovo region, which had been in the news a lot in the last decade, has an Albanian majority and medieval Serbian tradition, yet remained an Ottoman backwater until after the Balkan Wars of the early twentieth century.

Bottom line: no one likes each other.

And with over twenty-five distinct nationalities, Yugoslavia had one of the most complex ethnic profiles in Europe. Over seventy years after Yugoslavia's creation, a peaceful coexistence of these groups within the integrated state was on the brink of collapse.

The Constitution of 1974 divided the country's ethnic groups into two legally classified categories, “nations,” which were defined as ethnic groups whose traditional territorial homelands lay within the country's modern boundaries, and "nationalities," ethnic groups whose traditional homelands lay outside those boundaries.

That meant that the Yugoslav "nations" were the Croats, Macedonians, Montenegrins, Muslim Slavs, Serbs, and Slovenes. Yugoslavia's "nationalities" were the Albanians, Bulgars, Czechoslovak, Hungarians, Italians, Romanians, Ruthenians, Slovaks, Turks, and Ukrainians. Other ethnic groups also present included the Austrians, Germans, Greeks, Gypsies, Jews, Poles, Russians and Romanian Vlachs.

All were entitled to the same rights and freedoms guaranteed all other Yugoslavs in the national Constitution. Yet that was far from the case.

The country had a brief period of light in an otherwise dark recent history when the 1984 Winter Olympics were hosted in Sarajevo, but most of the Olympic buildings have since been destroyed or converted to military installations. I remember those Olympics. Good times. Everyone was so happy, but it was all a facade. Now we look back at that time like a widow talking about her late husband.

Enter a bad, bad guy by the name of Slobodan Milosevic. Depending on who you ask, Milosevic was responsible for the murder if thousands. During his 13 years of power, the people of Yugoslavia saw their country torn apart, and hundreds of thousands of people die. Among those were two of my uncles and three of my cousins.

His speeches attracted huge public support and became rallying cries for Serbs in all parts of Yugoslavia. He went from an unknown Communist puppet to a firebrand of Serbian nationalism. By lifting the lid on the long-standing taboo of national and ethnic rivalries, he reinvented himself as a charismatic leader of the Serbs. He then took control of Serbia's Communist Party from a friend of his in 1989 and became President of Serbia.

If you remember what the Domino Theory is, that nations would fall like dominoes to Communism is the 1950’s and 1960’s if the United States did not act, I think it was just as accurate a -description of how Communism fell and ended in Europe 30 and 40 years later. The Yugoslav Communist Party collapsed in January 1990, around the same time as the many Soviet satellite nations fell to bloodless revolutions. The congress then voted for an end to the one-party system, but Milosevic refused to agree to other reforms. The Slovenian and Croatian delegations walked out, leading to the break-up of the party and splintering a nation.
As Croatia called elections, Milosevic warned that if the Yugoslav nation dissolved, it would be necessary to redraw Serbia's boundaries to include Serbs living in other republics. The prospect of civil war was looming as was a decade of social upheaval, devastation, Civil War.

I was around 20 years old at the time and had no idea what Communism meant. I did not care about politics and detested when my father tried to talk to me about it. My older brother had gone to the United States to study engineering in college a few years earlier, which meant that I bore the brunt of his father’s ideological rants.

My father, a reformed Tito loyalist and current airplane mechanic, chose to make the Croats the object of his scorn and rancor. After Croatia declared independence, the Serb minority in Croatia looked to Milosevic for support. By December 1991, the Yugoslav People's Army and Serbian separatists had taken nearly a third of Croatia's territory. But the cost of the war was high. Soldiers were deserting in their thousands, and suicide was common. Many of Mirko’s classmates and childhood friends were killed or injured. Up to 20,000 people were killed, and 400,000 people made homeless.

It was about this time that my father thought it would be wise to send his second son to America to live with the first. Both boys fought the idea, Brana by letter, me in person. Finally Brana stopped writing and calling home. After more than a year of not hearing from Brana, I won my freedom and got stay. I moved out of his parents’ home and into the home of one of the junior-level goons that worked for his employers in Belgrade.

When Bosnia declared independence in April 1992, following a referendum, violence broke out throughout the republic. Milosevic vowed to defend Serbs from what he called "Croatian genocide" and "Islamic fundamentalism." More than three years of war followed, the bloodiest in Europe since World War II. I saw the effects of the war firsthand. My boss’ son, just a year older than I was at the time, lost part of his right leg below the knee when an artillery shell blew up just a few feet from where he was standing.

I was assigned to drive the injured man around to visit doctors, do his shopping and keep him company. It was not a plum job, but I took it seriously. I spent a lot of time listening to the disgruntled man talk about what was going on in their country and vent his frustrations about the very mixed public sentiments.

Many people, particularly families who were affected by the draft, wanted to see an end to war. But others wanted to protect their Serb brethren in Bosnia, and rallied behind Milosevic. But as the extent of Serbia's war crimes was revealed, Serbia was further isolated as a pariah state by the international community.

I remained unswayed. In the fall of 1992, Brana wrote me a letter asking me to come visit in New York. He was getting married and wanted his little brother to be his best man, but I was not allowed to tell our parents anything about the marriage. I could not wait to see New York. It would be my first trip to the United States and I did not tell his family he was going. Instead I asked my boss, who gave me extra money to pay for my passport and travel papers.

By April 14, 1993, the date on the airplane ticket that my brother had sent him, I had decided that he would stay longer than the planned 10 days. I packed all of his belongings, which consisted of six t-shirts, three dress shirts, a suit, on pair of blue jeans, three pair of slacks, eight pairs of underwear, six pair of socks, one pair of shoes, a toothbrush, a comb and a razor, into a black duffel bag and drove myself to the airport.

I parked as far away from the airport as I could, left the keys on the frontseat and left Yugoslavia forever.

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

The Return of Fall

Fall is here, and thank God. I hate those summer nights where it’s so gross out that you don’t want to leave the air conditioning. Living in New York with AC has spoiled me.

I hate those days and nights where you can’t get comfortable no matter how far to the left the thermostat knob is turned. What do they call them? The dog days of summer. Everywhere you go, your balls were swimming in a swarmy soup of nastiness. I don’t think you can shower enough on days like that, so you can only imagine how I feel sitting in the lobby on that same ripped leather stool for nearly nine hours at a time. It is enough to drive anyone else mad, with the large glass window and door panes sweating profusely.

Our windows are covered obstructed by large fabric drapes – they were never opened – but the fogged front doors reminded me of the mirror in my tiny bathroom after taking a hot shower. It gets so thick that I cannot see who was coming in until the doors swing open.

Global Warming is a bitch.

Over the past few months, I’ve gotten to know one of our newer tenants, Jordan Reisch in 17P, who I assumed was either a closet gay or did not have the charm necessary to have any success with either gender. I actually found him to be quite annoying. Immediately after moving into his small studio apartment in April, Jordan made it a point to introduce himself to me and spent a considerable amount of time with him in the lobby ever since.

Don’t get me wrong, I think Jordan means well, but I always feel uneasy after we talk. It wasn’t as much the kind of feeling you get because you think that person is hiding something or might be a serial killer with body parts in his freezer, but more along the lines of a general creepiness that a lonely kid with a questionable sexual or asexual orientation exudes.

But I don’t think he’s hiding anything. I really think that guy has no yellow light at all. When a thought pops into his head, he just says it no matter how inappropriate. It might be because he is starved for companionship, often returning home before midnight on weekends and remaining in the lobby while other residents returned. Sometimes he did not even go out at all, but simply wandered out of the elevator at 3 a.m. in his pajamas.

If you want my honest opinion, I suspect that even when he did go out on certain nights, he simply went across the street and sat in the Starbucks for an hour or two just to trick me. One of these nights, I am going to follow him. Just a weird cat.

So on Saturday night, Jordan came down just when I had come on duty, stopping at the doorman’s desk to hover like it was his intended destination. I think I was thumbing through a Daily News and asked if he was okay. Jordan obviously considers me to be his friend, and figuring his friend would be interested in a topic that he was fascinated with, began talking about an upcoming celestial event. Jordan began to explain how Mars would be as close to the earth, and therefore as big in the sky, as it would be for the next several thousand years.

I was uninterested, but did ask Jordan how his job at the New York Times was going. It was his third job in four months.

“Can you get me a free subscription,” I asked.

“Well, we are not exactly entitled to be giving out free papers, but I bet I could get you a discounted rate,” Jordan answered. “It’ll be a whole lot more informative than what you’re reading now.”

I closed the newspaper and looked at the cover, reminding myself which paper he was reading, and why it even mattered so much.

“Our paper has much better writing,” Jordan said.

I remembered hearing about a story where a lot of newspaper employees were recently fired for not disclosing something or other

“Were you involved in any of those scandals, why all those people were fired?” I asked suspiciously.

“Not exactly, but I do work for a department that helped shed some light on the subject,” Jordan answered with a grating smugness that was lost on me. “It was one reporter that you are talking about. He was guilty of plagarism, and since I work in research, we were the ones that initially called him out on his ruse.”

As far as I am concerned, they were all equally to blame and at risk. That is how the press works in his country.

During the course of our conversation, several more people wandered in, including a local deli delivery man who I know quite well… and the middle aged black man having an affair with Wanda Shantelle in 7F, just down the hall from that whore, Amanda. I cannot prove this, of course, but the man, “Lester,” who wore a wedding ring, had become a regular late-night visitor, no doubt for some late-night carousing with the divorced Shantelle.

I like gossiping. I am inclined to gossip about anything building-related with anyone who would listed, so I shared my suspicions with Jordan. I became amused that Jordan showed no emotion upon learning this. He watched as Lester waited for the elevator.

“You think black men have bigger dicks,” he asked me? “I bet he fucks her good.”

Monday, October 29, 2007

Starting a New Week

With the war going on in my country in the 1990’s, I could not have picked a worse time to come to the U.S. to pursue my education in electrical engineering. I learned English from reading newspapers, magazines and, ultimately, watching movies during my shift.

College had to wait. It is still waiting. I had to pay my bills. You need an income if you don’t have a student visa. I was not yet a legal resident here, I should say. So I went to work as a maintenance man in another building. I am now the maintenance supervisor four days a week. It leaves little time for sleep.

Two jobs in Murray Hill, you never sleep. But it gives me a good, working feel for the neighborhood. Commercial by day, residential by night. life is always moving.

Once I started making money, I became a legal resident alien. The management company that owns both buildings I work in sponsored me for citizenship, but I have yet to follow up on that.

Every building is different, and every doorman has different responsibilities. But one thing is true about all: We all have stories. We know lot about their tenants, but tenants know little about their doormen. Imagine if they found about this Blog, especially the girls that live in this building who come home with different guys night after night.

This one girl, maybe 23 or 24, moved in straight from college last summer. Amazing body, average face. Her name is Amanda Ehrlich. Total bitch. Never says hello, never even looks my way. You know she thinks she's better than me. It's too bad she is very attractive, because she has probably used that as an excuse to walk all over everyone.

I think she comes from a wealthy family in Westchester and does some sort of work in magazine ad sales or some bullshit like that. It's not important, because her daddy probably got her the job. What is important is that she sleeps around. In the past six months, I bet she has brought at least a dozen guys up to her place. Now I don't know what goes on down there, but some leave a few hours later with their hair all messed up and their clothes all untucked. Some I don't see leave before my shift is over at 8 a.m...” I bet they spend money on her, buying her drinks at bars, taking her to nice dinners to impress her, and then she just leaves them in her wake.

Girls in New York are vicious. But if you are into her and if you are looking for a cheap and easy screw, she’s in 14-F. I can talk to her for you. Or just come by. I’ll buzz you up.

Thursday, October 25, 2007

Understanding Responsibilities

Some buildings have two doormen. That way one can bring your groceries, laundry/dry cleaning or any delivery into your apartment, while the other minds the door. I think this is absurd. Of course, there are much larger buildings with multiple entries, but I mean your standard one-door apartments need just one doorman.

Do I really need help here? I mean, if you go to a store, buy something, leave it there, it might be more convenient for that to be in your apartment when you get home. But how many times do I need to tell you that you can never fully trust your doorman? We know everything.

Doormen screen visitors. We'll hold the door for you when your hands are full and sign for packages. But as far as running errands? Not a part of the deal.

I'm not your butler.

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Doorman, Not Maintenance Man

It is good to have a doorman. Your packages get signed for while you are at work, and your plants get watered while you are out of town. If you have friends coming over but you are late getting home, you can call and have the doorman let them in your place.

But please, please do not ask us to fix things. That is what the maintenance men are for. We make more money than they do. Early this morning, Ben katz, who may or may not be named after two famous New York delicatessens, called down in a panic. He met a girl at a club last night, got her drunk, brought her home and she spent the night. When she got up this morning, the diamond ring she was wearing (not an engagement ring) was knocked down the drain in his bathroom sink.

She was crying, he was yelling and I was laughing. Needless to say, I called Roberto, the maintenance man, who is in the process of taking apart his entire sink as we speak.

Also, if you have a pest problem, call an exterminator. That's not my job. It's not my fault you drop food on the floor, it gets stuck under your couch or in the space between your stove and refrigerator and then you see mice, cockroaches and water bugs. Clean your own place and get your own mouse traps. Can no one do things for themselves? And don't get me started on the girls who don't know what to do when the pilot light goes out under their stoves.

Of course, for all this talk about the difference between doormen and maintenance men, just make sure your building management does a thorough criminal background check on the prospective maintenance men. They're a bunch of criminals.

Sunday, January 21, 2007

Late Night Wake-Up Call

I was watching Babel on the DVD last night/early this morning while at the front desk. It was a cold, cold night so I had already locked down the front door for the night.

It was just before 4 a.m. when I heard and felt a loud crash. It would be another hour before the daily newspaper delivery service would be by to deliver newspapers to about 40 of the units in our building. It's funny, they come in around 5, hit every floor and are out in 15 minutes or less. It's among the more impressive feats, when you think about it. It's yet another example of how lazy people are. They have to have the paper waiting for them when they wake up. Utterly absurd. Like it's hard to walk down to the corner to buy the paper. That little bit of exercise might even do some of those fat bastards some good.

But back to the loud crash. It reminded me of a grenade going off outside on the street. I opened the door and peaked my head out, but did not see anything directly in front of the building. The street was desolate and empty, so I went back inside.

The phone rang; it was the guy in 5C asking if there was an explosion of the street. Had it been Mrs. Lipschitz in 5O, I would have ignored it. But Mr. Ohunyele felt the collision and it woke him up. Maybe five minutes later, the first of loud emergency vehicle sirens alerted me that something had in fact happened. The sirens were no longer getting louder or going away. There had been some sort of event that took place.

This time I put my jacket on and walked up to the corner on which Mr. Ohunyele overlooks up on 34th Street. As I got past the building, I saw the most unusual site - an overturned tax cab with more than half of the vehicle actually inside the Duane Reade that sits on the corner. For whatever reason, the cab lost control and plowed into one of the big display windows. There was no snow on the ground, but there may have been ice. There were no other vehicles that looked like they had been involved in the accident.

The sirens I heard were two police cars. Ambulances had not yet arrived. One police officer was already looking into the cab to see if there were passengers and what the condition of driver was. I was only outside for a few minutes and could not really offer any assistance. I returned inside and locked the door as more rescue and emergency vehicles stated to arrive. I have no question that the force of the impact I felt on the side of the building either killed or seriously injured the driver.

And the audacity of the tenants in our building... I got about 5-6 more calls from folks upstairs asking if I could do anything about the noise of the street. Apparently the wailing of the ambulances had woken them up. No regard for the life or lives at stake, they needed their previous sleep. Simply amazing.

Friday, January 19, 2007

Day Job

So you may be wondering why I haven't written in awhile. For that, I apologize. It turns out I had to take on another job to pay the bills. My wife is pregnant again!

Since early October, I have been working in the men’s fragrance department of a major, NYC department store that I will not mention, but rhymes with Gaycy's. You may have even seen me there for the holidays, standing along that snake-like line of usually six or seven tall, handsome, effeminate well-dressed men standing with bottles ready to spray, baskets of samples, and whatnot. Well during the holiday rush, they need to hire more, and from the looks of me, anyone with a pusle would do.

Mixed into that line of "sampling specialists," is one guy who clearly doesn' t belong. That's me, showing up to work wearing a wife-beater and baggy jeans. You've seen these guys jockeying for position, getting very catty and competitive any time a man walks by. There is an unwritten rules that when a woman walks by, they get rude, abruptly looking away as if to ignore her and let her know she is worth nothing.

I even recall one guy, Gianni, uttering this memorable line to a shocked customer...

“You dab a little of this on your privates, and she’ll have her face in your lap in no time.Hey you (to a passing woman): come here and sniff my crotch.

The guy's response... “I’m just looking for the ties.”

As it turns out, the store no longer needed my services after the new year shopping crunch ended, so I've gone back to doing the maintenance and handyman work. The good news is that over these past few months, I've seen a lot more crazy stuff go down at my apartment building that I look forward to sharing. I'm back, baby!